Did I blink and miss it? I just can't believe it'll be Feb tomorrow!
Sorry it's been a while since my last post but I haven't really had much to say! Such an exciting life I lead I know!
I've decided to join WW next Tuesday and am actually really eager to get going. I've got my best friend coming to visit this weekend which means lunch out sat and copious amounts of wine so decided to not join this week and then spoil it! So the plan is to enjoy this weekend and then start frash next week. Having said that, I am being careful this week. I ordered my Deluxe Essential Pack from WW today so should be all set to go on Tues :-)
I've been loitering on the WW message boards recently and really find them inspirational. It's so nice to know that I am not alone, that I'm not the fattest person in the UK afterall, and that people my size do manage to loose increadable amounts of weight and keep it off! I'm going to make a point of using the message boards this time to get the extra help and support I need. I will do it this time.
I took DD to a birthday party yesterday where they had trampolines and she wanted me to get on with her. They were proper competition ones, not the ones for the back garden, but I was really nervous to get on because of my weight. When I did finally get on (when I was sure no-one was watching!) it sank down so much that I rapidly got off again! So I now have a non-scale related goal - to go on a trampoline without breaking it and without giving myself black eyes!
Monday, 31 January 2011
Monday, 17 January 2011
17 Jan 11 - Wii Fit!
Not a great weekend as far as eating healthily I'm afraid, we went out shopping Sat and ended up in MacDonalds. And of course I couldn't have a salad, that would just be wrong, so had a Big Mac Meal! Also got a bottle of wine as my parents are visiting this week but ended up drinking it Sat night! Then got another one and drank that Sun night. And of course you can't drink wine without something to nibble on so had a big bag of crisps too! I'm doing so well!
On the plus size, I did get Wii Fit Plus and Just Dance 2 on Sat so spent sat evening (before the wine!) trying out the new games on Wii Fit and then DD & I did some dancing on Sun - it's surprisingly hard!
A woman I know just completed her first week on the new WW program and lost 6.5lbs! So I've got high hopes when I do join. Fingers crossed - just hope I don't put too much on between now and Feb!
On the plus size, I did get Wii Fit Plus and Just Dance 2 on Sat so spent sat evening (before the wine!) trying out the new games on Wii Fit and then DD & I did some dancing on Sun - it's surprisingly hard!
A woman I know just completed her first week on the new WW program and lost 6.5lbs! So I've got high hopes when I do join. Fingers crossed - just hope I don't put too much on between now and Feb!
Thursday, 13 January 2011
13 Jan 11 - Inspiration
I didn't make it to the gym today, I'm just so tired. I did take the dog for a long walk though so at least I've dome something.
I was looking at the success stories on the WW website earlier and found this one: http://www.weightwatchers.co.uk/success/art/index.aspx?SuccessStoryId=7191&sc=17
She is my height and started off the same weight I am now so it is possible! She went from a size 24 to a size 10! I've printed the story out and am going to read it when I need a bit of motivation. Lets hope it helps (fingers crossed).
I know I seem to very negative at the moment (maybe it's the January Blues!) its just that I dieted on and off for so long now that I just find it depressing!
A couple of years ago I had to have my gall bladder removed due to having gall stones, I read the other day that this in commonly caused by yo-yo dieting! I read a news story today about a woman who has had a gastric bypass after fighting for it for 3 years. I very much doubt I'd get one on the NHS but I'd definitely pay for one privately if I could. I'm sure many people think it's a bit drastic and that dieting and exercise can achieve the same thing, but having attempted that for about 15 years now, I can quite honestly say I'd be willing to try anything!
I was looking at the success stories on the WW website earlier and found this one: http://www.weightwatchers.co.uk/success/art/index.aspx?SuccessStoryId=7191&sc=17
She is my height and started off the same weight I am now so it is possible! She went from a size 24 to a size 10! I've printed the story out and am going to read it when I need a bit of motivation. Lets hope it helps (fingers crossed).
I know I seem to very negative at the moment (maybe it's the January Blues!) its just that I dieted on and off for so long now that I just find it depressing!
A couple of years ago I had to have my gall bladder removed due to having gall stones, I read the other day that this in commonly caused by yo-yo dieting! I read a news story today about a woman who has had a gastric bypass after fighting for it for 3 years. I very much doubt I'd get one on the NHS but I'd definitely pay for one privately if I could. I'm sure many people think it's a bit drastic and that dieting and exercise can achieve the same thing, but having attempted that for about 15 years now, I can quite honestly say I'd be willing to try anything!
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
12 Jan 11 - I could cry
I've just seen a photo of myself taken just before Christmas. I wasn't aware that I was being photographed and it was on a day I thought I looked pretty good and actually made an effort. I look horrendous! I'm absolutely huge! It's weird, when I see myself in my mind eye, I'm big and curvy but not hideous as that picture portrayed. Maybe that's why I'm struggling, I don't see myself as big as I actually am! I am planning on joining Weight Watchers in feb, I didn't see the point in joining before as I've got several events coming up that I actually want to enjoy, plus we've done the shopping for the month already so it needs to be eaten!
Seeing this picture has definitly shocked me. Lets just hope it's the motivational push I need. Maybe I should keep the picture to remind myself everytime I want to eat something bad!
Seeing this picture has definitly shocked me. Lets just hope it's the motivational push I need. Maybe I should keep the picture to remind myself everytime I want to eat something bad!
12 Jan 11 - A new coat
Completely forgot to write yesterday, not that much happened really. Feeling very 'blah' and the moment, I just don't seem to have motivation or energy to do anything. I did manage to get to the gym at least but it was a struggle!
I've been needing a new coat for ages and have just been making do with cardigans. Everytime I went shopping for one I found that if they had my size, they were hideous, and any nice ones didn't come in my size. Obviously fat women can't have taste! Anyway, I finally ordered one online, but the sizes were 18-20 or 22-24. Now I wanted a 20-22 so had to get the bigger one. It arrived yesterday and I look like I'm wearing a tent! Not at all flattering. I'd love to have Gok Wan come and style me! I think he's fab, he gets women loving their bodies no matter what size they are.
I really need something to motivate me, in everything really. Everything just seems like too much work at the moment.
What a happy note to end on!
I've been needing a new coat for ages and have just been making do with cardigans. Everytime I went shopping for one I found that if they had my size, they were hideous, and any nice ones didn't come in my size. Obviously fat women can't have taste! Anyway, I finally ordered one online, but the sizes were 18-20 or 22-24. Now I wanted a 20-22 so had to get the bigger one. It arrived yesterday and I look like I'm wearing a tent! Not at all flattering. I'd love to have Gok Wan come and style me! I think he's fab, he gets women loving their bodies no matter what size they are.
I really need something to motivate me, in everything really. Everything just seems like too much work at the moment.
What a happy note to end on!
Monday, 10 January 2011
10 Jan 11 - Not a good start :-(
So I finally weighed myself and the final horrendous figure is .....(drum roll please)....20st 2lbs! Oh my god! And to make myself feel better, I've just eaten a lump of cheese! I did say I was a comfort eater!
Not a good start as I didn't make it to the gym today either, I did manage a couple of walks at least. I forgot to mention that I'm doing the London Moonwalk this year. For anyone who doesn't know, this is a nightime walk through London, sounds easy enough until you find out it's the length of a marathon! Oh and you do it in a bra! Can't wait (not)! So I REALLY need to start training for it - I've only got till May. Aarrgh!
So, plan for tomorrow is gym at lunchtime plus a couple of walks with the dog. And to stop eating crap!
Not a good start as I didn't make it to the gym today either, I did manage a couple of walks at least. I forgot to mention that I'm doing the London Moonwalk this year. For anyone who doesn't know, this is a nightime walk through London, sounds easy enough until you find out it's the length of a marathon! Oh and you do it in a bra! Can't wait (not)! So I REALLY need to start training for it - I've only got till May. Aarrgh!
So, plan for tomorrow is gym at lunchtime plus a couple of walks with the dog. And to stop eating crap!
Thursday, 6 January 2011
6 Jan 2011 - I've been to the Gym!
Yes you read that right, I have actually been to the gym today! But my god was that hard work! I must admit I did actually feel better after too. I really need to pull my finger out and get myself sorted and make sure I have food and wash stuff and all that sort of stuff sorted to make it all a bit more pleasant though.
I still haven't weighed myself though! Avoidance I hear you shout, but to be honest I just forgot, although now I think about it, you're right, I don't really want to know!
I found out today that Champneys Spa hotels also do 'Fit Weeks'! They look great but aren't exactly on the cheap side! See here for details -
http://www.champneys.com/Booking/Packages/Wellbeing-Breaks/7-night-fit-camp-2011-at-henlow?date=19%2F03%2F2011
I'm ok with all the hard work if you know there's a bit of pampering to come at the end of the day! And someone else to cook the nutritionally balanced meal, it's such a pain having to do it yourself.
My DH keeps on abou my joining Weighht Watchers again and try their new Pro Points Plan (looks like a bit of Slimming World added to existing plan if you ask me) but I don't think I'm ready at the moment. I just can't face starting another year on another diet. It's just all too depressing :-(
For the time being I've decided to concentrate on going to the gym at least 3 times a week and cutting the crap out of my diet, but not actually dieting, just eating a little healthier. I'll see how things go for a while and then reasess. If I join WW now I just know I won't stick to it, my heart and mind just aren't ready for it yet.
So, goals for tonight - finally get myself weighed, dust off the Wii to make sure it still works and dig out Wii Fit!
I still haven't weighed myself though! Avoidance I hear you shout, but to be honest I just forgot, although now I think about it, you're right, I don't really want to know!
I found out today that Champneys Spa hotels also do 'Fit Weeks'! They look great but aren't exactly on the cheap side! See here for details -
http://www.champneys.com/Booking/Packages/Wellbeing-Breaks/7-night-fit-camp-2011-at-henlow?date=19%2F03%2F2011
I'm ok with all the hard work if you know there's a bit of pampering to come at the end of the day! And someone else to cook the nutritionally balanced meal, it's such a pain having to do it yourself.
My DH keeps on abou my joining Weighht Watchers again and try their new Pro Points Plan (looks like a bit of Slimming World added to existing plan if you ask me) but I don't think I'm ready at the moment. I just can't face starting another year on another diet. It's just all too depressing :-(
For the time being I've decided to concentrate on going to the gym at least 3 times a week and cutting the crap out of my diet, but not actually dieting, just eating a little healthier. I'll see how things go for a while and then reasess. If I join WW now I just know I won't stick to it, my heart and mind just aren't ready for it yet.
So, goals for tonight - finally get myself weighed, dust off the Wii to make sure it still works and dig out Wii Fit!
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
5 Jan 2011 - Welcome
Hi. Welcome to my Diary of a Curvy Chick, by "curvy" I do of course mean fat! Lets be honest from the start!
Firstly my reasons behind starting this - every year I, like many others, make a New Year's resolution to loose weight. And every year ends with me weighing more rather than less - like many others I'm sure! So I decided to start this diary about the highs and lows, the triumphs and challanges I face only a daily basis when it comes to loosing weight, getting fit and generally surviving life!
I'm going to try and be as honest as I can, so won't be revealing my identity (at least not yet a while!). I hope that by keeping this diary it will help me see what works (and doesn't) when it comes to weight loss but also provide a general venting space should I need it - apologies for any future rants! It would be nice to think that in the future it might also be a source of hope, support, or just a giggle for other people!
And so to me:
I'm 30 years old and live in the south of England with my hubby and daughter (referred to as DH and DD in future - dear husband and dear daugther for those who don't know web abbreviations, and yes, I had to look them up not too long ago too!) I work full time as does DH and DD is at nursery.
And the problem:
I'm 5'7" tall and weigh....actually I'd better check tonight, I doubt Christmas has been kind!
Needless to say I have A LOT of weight to loose to be in my 'ideal' range. Having said that, I don't put much stock by BMI, I think I'd be too thin if I went by this. But maybe that's just me making excuses! According to the Weight Watchers BMI chart, at my height I should weigh between 9 st 2 lbs and 11 st 6 lbs. To be perfectly honest, I don't really care what I weigh, it's more about clothes size to me. I'd love to be a size 14, although a 12 would be better! At the moment I'm a 20 to 22. So I've a long way to go.
It feels like that ever since puberty hit, I've been on a diet of some sort and to be honest I'm sick of them. I've done Weight Watchers, Slimming World, the cabbage soup diet (lasted about 2 days!), Atkins (made my sick!), I've joined gyms more times than I can remember, but it never lasts. I'll loose a couple of stone but then get stuck and bored and gradually put the weight, and more, back on.
And the goal:
This year I plan to find something that actually works for me, I'm not really sure what that is yet but I'm willing to give anything a try!
A final thought:
I am constantly amazed by how nasty, inconsiderate and ignorant some people are when it comes to weight issues. For example, today at work we had a coffee morning and there were lots of donuts. Towards the end, I was standing with 3 male colleagues, all fairly slim, when one of the coffee morning hosts came over trying to get rid of the last few donuts. He offered them to each man in turn saying "you're thin (or fairly thin), have a donut", but never even acknowledged me and then walked off! I couldn't belive it! I know I'm fat, but who the hell does he think he is deciding if I can have a donut or not?! I just don't understand how people can be so insensitive. To make it worse, I'm very much a comfort eater - upsetting me really doesn't help with my weight loss! Rant over!
Firstly my reasons behind starting this - every year I, like many others, make a New Year's resolution to loose weight. And every year ends with me weighing more rather than less - like many others I'm sure! So I decided to start this diary about the highs and lows, the triumphs and challanges I face only a daily basis when it comes to loosing weight, getting fit and generally surviving life!
I'm going to try and be as honest as I can, so won't be revealing my identity (at least not yet a while!). I hope that by keeping this diary it will help me see what works (and doesn't) when it comes to weight loss but also provide a general venting space should I need it - apologies for any future rants! It would be nice to think that in the future it might also be a source of hope, support, or just a giggle for other people!
And so to me:
I'm 30 years old and live in the south of England with my hubby and daughter (referred to as DH and DD in future - dear husband and dear daugther for those who don't know web abbreviations, and yes, I had to look them up not too long ago too!) I work full time as does DH and DD is at nursery.
And the problem:
I'm 5'7" tall and weigh....actually I'd better check tonight, I doubt Christmas has been kind!
Needless to say I have A LOT of weight to loose to be in my 'ideal' range. Having said that, I don't put much stock by BMI, I think I'd be too thin if I went by this. But maybe that's just me making excuses! According to the Weight Watchers BMI chart, at my height I should weigh between 9 st 2 lbs and 11 st 6 lbs. To be perfectly honest, I don't really care what I weigh, it's more about clothes size to me. I'd love to be a size 14, although a 12 would be better! At the moment I'm a 20 to 22. So I've a long way to go.
It feels like that ever since puberty hit, I've been on a diet of some sort and to be honest I'm sick of them. I've done Weight Watchers, Slimming World, the cabbage soup diet (lasted about 2 days!), Atkins (made my sick!), I've joined gyms more times than I can remember, but it never lasts. I'll loose a couple of stone but then get stuck and bored and gradually put the weight, and more, back on.
And the goal:
This year I plan to find something that actually works for me, I'm not really sure what that is yet but I'm willing to give anything a try!
A final thought:
I am constantly amazed by how nasty, inconsiderate and ignorant some people are when it comes to weight issues. For example, today at work we had a coffee morning and there were lots of donuts. Towards the end, I was standing with 3 male colleagues, all fairly slim, when one of the coffee morning hosts came over trying to get rid of the last few donuts. He offered them to each man in turn saying "you're thin (or fairly thin), have a donut", but never even acknowledged me and then walked off! I couldn't belive it! I know I'm fat, but who the hell does he think he is deciding if I can have a donut or not?! I just don't understand how people can be so insensitive. To make it worse, I'm very much a comfort eater - upsetting me really doesn't help with my weight loss! Rant over!
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