5 Jan 2011 - Welcome

Hi. Welcome to my Diary of a Curvy Chick, by "curvy" I do of course mean fat! Lets be honest from the start!

Firstly my reasons behind starting this - every year I, like many others, make a New Year's resolution to loose weight.  And every year ends with me weighing more rather than less - like many others I'm sure!  So I decided to start this diary about the highs and lows, the triumphs and challanges I face only a daily basis when it comes to loosing weight, getting fit and generally surviving life!

I'm going to try and be as honest as I can, so won't be revealing my identity (at least not yet a while!).  I hope that by keeping this diary it will help me see what works (and doesn't) when it comes to weight loss but also provide a general venting space should I need it - apologies for any future rants!  It would be nice to think that in the future it might also be a source of hope, support, or just a giggle for other people!

And so to me:

I'm 30 years old and live in the south of England with my hubby and daughter (referred to as DH and DD in future - dear husband and dear daugther for those who don't know web abbreviations, and yes, I had to look them up not too long ago too!)  I work full time as does DH and DD is at nursery. 

And the problem:

I'm 5'7" tall  and weigh....actually I'd better check tonight, I doubt Christmas has been kind!
Needless to say I have A LOT of weight to loose to be in my 'ideal' range.  Having said that, I don't put much stock by BMI, I think I'd be too thin if I went by this. But maybe that's just me making excuses!  According to the Weight Watchers BMI chart, at my height I should weigh between 9 st 2 lbs and 11 st 6 lbs.  To be perfectly honest, I don't really care what I weigh, it's more about clothes size to me.  I'd love to be a size 14, although a 12 would be better!  At the moment I'm a 20 to 22. So I've a long way to go.

It feels like that ever since puberty hit, I've been on a diet of some sort and to be honest I'm sick of them.  I've done Weight Watchers, Slimming World, the cabbage soup diet (lasted about 2 days!), Atkins (made my sick!), I've joined gyms more times than I can remember, but it never lasts.  I'll loose a couple of stone but then get stuck and bored and gradually put the weight, and more, back on.

And the goal:

This year I plan to find something that actually works for me, I'm not really sure what that is yet but I'm willing to give anything a try!

A final thought:

I am constantly amazed by how nasty, inconsiderate and ignorant some people are when it comes to weight issues.  For example, today at work we had a coffee morning and there were lots of donuts.  Towards the end, I was standing with 3 male colleagues, all fairly slim, when one of the coffee morning hosts came over trying to get rid of the last few donuts.  He offered them to each man in turn saying "you're thin (or fairly thin), have a donut", but never even acknowledged me and then walked off!  I couldn't belive it!  I know I'm fat, but who the hell does he think he is deciding if I can have a donut or not?!  I just don't understand how people can be so insensitive.  To make it worse, I'm very much a comfort eater - upsetting me really doesn't help with my weight loss! Rant over!