30 Mar 11 - 5%

I have now officially lost 5% of my starting body weight!  I didn't WI last week as had awful migraine but went last night and have lost 5lbs! To say I was shocked is an understatement.  I would have been happy staying the same to honest, it my TOTM and over the weekend DH was away and I didn't eat a single 'real' meal! I didn't go over my points but did just eat crap!

So now I've lost 15.5lbs in total, in 7 weeks.  I'm very happy with that.  Can't say I can see any difference in my body yet, although my thighs are definitely slimmer.  Butu then last time I lost weight, I didn't notice till I'd lost nearly 2 stone.  I'm desperate to get into the next cloths size down, I've got load of nice trousers and jeans just begging to be worn and am currently stuck in just 2 pairs that fit!  But I refuse to buy more at this stage.

My mum is coming to visit next week and I haven't seen her since before I start on WW, so it'll be interesting to see if she notices any difference. Fingers crossed! x

21 Mar 11 - Could I be the next David Bailey???

Ok, so it's not likely, but I have just signed up to a digital photography course with the OU!  I've been doing business related courses with them for the past year or so, supposidly to enhance my employment prospects, but I've got bored and decided to do some courses that I actually want to do, rather than the ones I "ought" to do.  I did that with my first degree and hated every minute of it - what a waste of 3 years at uni! Can't wait to get started in May - could be the start of a whole new career ;-)

Anyway, back to real (boring?!) life.  Last Tuesday's WI showed ANOTHER 1.5lbs off.  All good but just wish I could get the odd 2lbs off once in a while! Fingers crossed for tomorrow, although I'm not holding my breath. 

Quite an uneventful week really.  My DD had her first sleepover at a friends house on Friday.  She's only 3 and a half so I was expecting a phone call to collect her but she was fine.  I'm so pleased, but then she always has been confident and independent so I suppose it's only to be expected.  Unfortunatly we didn't get a lie in on Sat morning as DH had to go in to hospital for an operation at 7am.  Had to be there for 7am but didn't go to theatre till mid afternoon! All went well though and now he's back home on the mend.  I was worried that I wouldn't be able to get to the gym in the evenings but as long as I put DD to bed first, he'll be fine after - so no excuses for me!  I haven't been to the gym in about 2 weeks now due to tonsilitus and then sciatica but hopefully back to it this week.

It's lovely and sunny at the moment so just hope it keeps it up - I'm so much happier when it's sunny :-)

Bye for now x

14 Mar 11 - Pizza, bowling injuries and owl costumes!

A bit of a mixed barrel for today's post as you have probably already guessed!

First off, I lost anoth 1.5lbs on Tuesday's WI. It seems that 1.5lbs is what I can loose without making much effort! (I.e. eating all dailies and weeklies and not doing any exercise!) Not bad really!

So on to topic number one - Pizza!  I was sat at work last week deciding what to do for dinner when I had the sudden craving for pizza! Quite unusual for me as it's not one of my fave dishes. So, on to Tesco.com I go to see what I could come up with - and boy did I find a fab solution! (I've actually had pizza for lunch every day since!)

So here is my amazing 12pp pizza recipe.

1.  1 Napolina mini pizza base - cut through the middle to make two thinner bases (6pp)

2.  Spread each with 1tbsp of tomato puree (1pp)

3.  Sprinkle 60g of extra mature low-fat cheese over (5pp)

4.  Add any other free topping you like - my current faves are finely diced red onion and red pepper, capers and a chopped green chilli for some heat. (for an extra 1pp, add 2 slices of chopped pepperoni)

5.  Shove in the oven for 10 mins and enjoy!

This is a very satisfying, filling meal and soooo moorish!  I like to cut the base in two as I find them a bit doughy otherwise - plus you get twice the topping! Yum yum yum!

Topic number two - Bowling injuries! Now you may well laugh, but I went bowling last Wednesday with work and I've now got sciatica!  We bowled for abou two and a half hours and I had a great time - mainly because it turns out I'm quite good and my team won!  But the next day my hips ached from it and then on Sat it turned into sciatica - Who on earth comes away from bowling with an injury?!  Only me!  Needless to say I've still not been to the gym as just walking is painful at the moment.

And finally topic number tree - Owl costumes!  My DD is doing a sponsored arobic session in friday in aid of comic relief at her nursery and has to be dressed as a character from The Gruffalo!  So in my great wisdom, I decided to make an owl costume!  I started with a trip to hobby craft - alway dangerous as I just get carried away in that place, and returned with loads of felt, which then took the rest of sat to cut into feathers!  I have to say though - this is the best blooming owl costume I've ever seen!  It's gorgeous even if I do say so myself! Just need to sort the mask out and I'll be done, but another trip to hobbycraft is required as I'm out of felt.  I'll post a pic once it's done - I'm so proud of myself.  I was sat there Sat night with a bruise on my thumb from cutting for so long and it suddenly struck me just what my mother went through for me, the number of amazing costumes she's made over the years and it never occurred to me before, the number of hours she put into them.  Thanks mum x

On a sadder note, I've just been looking at the BBC news website reading about the Japan earthquake and it really puts my (and most other peoples) lives in perspective.  There's us worrying about only loosing a pound and a half in a week or wether we should have that chocolate or not, while accross the other side of the world there are whole villages washed away. Even seeing the destruction on TV, I just can't comprehend what it must be like out there.  I thank God that I have nothing really to worry about, not when you look at the big picture. x

08 Mar 11 - Poorly me :-(

I've been neglecting you once again haven't I?! Very sorry, been feeling pants and it now turns out I've had tonsillitis!  Anyway, I lost another 1.5lbs at last weeks WI, I must admit that I was a little disappointed but gave myself a kick up the bum so am now happy.  As long as it's coming off, I'm happy!  I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but just can't help it and lots of people seem to have huge losses in their first few weeks so I was expecting too as well. But. 7.5lbs in 3 weeks is good, bloody good in fact!

Got my WI again tonight and I'm also going to take my measurements again so will hopefully see a difference.  I think my jeans are looser certainly.  I can't wait to get back into my smart work trousers - I'm too much of a cheapskate to buy new ones!

Some days this week have been a real struggle as I've been feeling rough and just wanted to eat everything in sight.  I tried to keep my weeklies for Sat as I was going out for drinks but ended up using a few during the week. Still managed to have about a bottle and a half of vino sat night though!

It's funny how some days it's hard and others easy isn't it. Like I said, a couple of days last week I went over my dailies and really struggled controlling my eating whereas yesterday I had 5 dailies left over I just didn't want anything else to eat!

So fingers crossed for tonight! x

01 Mar 11 - Wedding Weekend and WI tonight

I know it's been a while since my last post, it's just been so hectic round here what with work, OU assignments, family and a wedding!

So on Sat we went down to Portsmouth for a wedding of one of DH's friends.  I'd decided to drive thus allowing DH to drink and me to save points!  I also decided to enjoy the day and not worry about tracking.  I had all my weeklies left so just wrote them all off for that day.  We even had a sneaky kebab on the way home after!  The next day I started thinking about the previous day's point and decided to try and work it all out as best I could.  What a shock! Obviously I'd gone into my weeklies but there was no way I'd used them all, even over estimating everything, I couldn't have used them all!  I still wrote them off, just to be on the safe side, but it just goes to show that we can enjoy important events and still keep on track.

DH is away this week and I have a habit of not eating properly when he's not around so I'm going to make a real effort to still cook proper meals this week.

I've got my WI tonight. I'm annoyed I won't be able to stay to the meeting but I'm going to have to take DD along and she'll just be a pest if we stayed.  DH being away also means that I won't be able to get to the gym this week. So I'll have to make the effort at the weekend and leave him to babysit! Oh to be without responsibilities again!  I love them really!

23 Feb 11 - WI number 2 and the evilness of donuts!

Last night was my 2nd WI and I lost 1.5lbs. It's my TOTM so was prepared for a low loss but still secretly hoped for more - don't we all!  Just shows that PP works though.  I kept within my point all week but ate a lot more than in my first week, including 2 McDonald's and a bottle of wine!  Oh and a huge packet of crisps!  Just shows you can still enjoy life whilst on a a diet!

Coffee morning at work today so thought I'd treat myself to a donut.  I admit I hadn't checked the points value before as I don't have my book with me but thought I remembered seeing that a jam donut was 7pp.  But checked online after and they're 9pp each! Nine?!  That's ridiculous, last time I do that!  Stupid thing was I've got loads of WW treats in my desk which I could have had instead! What a waste. Oh well, we live and learn. 


I've been meaning to go to the gym for the past 2 nights but been feeling tired and crap but really must go tonight.  I actually really enjoy it once I'm there, it's just the initial getting off my ar5e I struggle with!

Really should get back to work now, I've actually got loads to do this week as well as an OU assignment due in on Sat! Stressed!

17 Feb 11 - The joys of spring?

Yesterday, I thought spring had sprung, it was sunny and warm and the crocuses were blooming! Today it's back to the cold, damp greyness that is England!

I had yesterday afternoon off to join the gym and loved it! I did 20 mins on the cross trainer and then 10 lengths in the pool, which I had to myself for most of the time!  I then wallowed in the jacuzzi for at least 15 mins - I was imagining that the bubbles were literally beating the fat out of me! And I finished off in the sauna!  So all in all a very nice afternoon.  It felt great to be able to do some exercise and then have some relaxing 'me' time and I came away feeling great!  I'll be very happy if I can do that a couple of times a week, just a shame works here to get in the way!

For dinner last night I decided to do a chicken pasta bake.  I haven't used pasta since starting WW and was shocked how little pasta you get for the points.  4pp gets you 40g of pasta and that really looks a pathetic amount.  Anyway, once I got over my initial shock, I got on with cooking and added loads of veg to the sauce to bulk it out and ended up with a huge, delicious and really filling dinner.  So maybe WW do know what they're talking about afterall!  Yesterday was the first day I used all my points up too :-)

I've just eaten a box of WW mint humbugs in about 10 mins and now feel very sick! But they're just so moorish!

Just remembered, last night when I was looking at our money situation for next month (I like to plan ahead!) my DH said he needed about £100 more than usual as he was getting me a suprise! How exciting!  At first I thought it might be a Kindle but then he mentioned going to John Lewis to get it and you can only get Kindle's from amazon I think.  He hinted that it would save space! Huh?  Trouble is, he's awful at keeping secrets and he's bound to tell me before I actually get it.  He also said he was worried I might not like it! Really confused now, but excited too! I'll let you know what it turns out to be x

16 Feb 11 - Weigh-In Number One!

So the moment of truth arrived and .....(drum roll please)....4.5lbs down! Yay!

Very pleased with that! Good start! I found this week fairly easy.  One of my main problems was (ironically) not eating enough!  So better planning this week for breakfasts and lunches so I don't end up with loads of points left in the evening which I then use on crap!

I'm off to join the gym this afternoon! (please pick yourself up off the floor!)  I think I may have finally found the Gym for me.  It's part of the Spirit Health Club chain and it is in the local Holiday Inn.  There's a pool, jacuzzi, sauna and tiny gym and I get unlimited use for £25.20 per month!  Plus as DD is only 3, I can take her swimming free of charge, so even better.  I have been using the gym at work but I can only go at lunch time and then it eats into my flexi.  This way I can go 2 or 3 evenings a week, have a workout, a swim and the a sauna - bliss!  My little escape, I'll finally have a little bit of time to myself.  DH is very supportive of this and is quite happy for me to go, I think he realises I need a bit of 'me' time!  I'll let you know how my first trip goes tomorrow.

15 Feb 11 - First WI tonight :-\

So I've got my first WI tonight, I'm surprisingly nervous!  I been good all week but still worried I'll have lost nothing!  Ia am slightly concerned that I haven't eaten enough actually because on several days I haven't used all my dailys and I didn't touch my weeklies.  You'd think that would be a good thing but I've read on the WW forum that not eating enough can prevent weight loss!

I'm still struggling with breakfast.  I just don't want it at home.  I need to find something I can eat at work that's quick and easy but also filling.  What about if I cook some low fat sausages and maybe some boiled eggs?  That way I could have a high protein breakfast without actually having to do anything!  That sound's like a possible way forward!

13 Feb 11 - Mcdonalds!

I had a Big Mac for lunch today! You wouldn't have thought that would be allowed on a diet would you? But it was 13pp so well within my limit - how great is that?!  I was very restrained and didn't have any fries but actually found that I didn't need them, the burger was enough.  So as long as I end up loosing something come weigh-in on Tues, I can confidently say I love this diet!

11 Feb 11 - Before and after

Found a great website called My Virtual Model which allows you create models of yourself and then reduce the weight! So here are my virtual before and after shots!

10 Feb 11 - I survived day 1!

Well, yesterday went well, my first day on the WW Pro Points plan.  I was very good, measured everything and resisted temptations!  I measured my rice for dinner and thought "Is that all I get?", it looked a pathetic amount but as it turned out, it was enough. I felt satisfied after so it just goes to show how much I've been stuffing myself before.  I actually struggled to eat all my daily allowance of PP, something that was emphasised at the meeting was that all dailies MUST be eaten but at the moment I'm on 44 a day so actually seem to be eating more then I did previously - it's just that what I'm eating is healthier now!  Fingers crossed it works!

I also made some delicious butternut squash soup last night and it's zero pp!  I chopped up a huge BNS (with skin left on), and a large red onion and roasted them with loads of garlic (crushed but with skins still on).  I also threw in some fresh thyme and salt and pepper.  Once soft, I squeezed the garlic out of their skins and then whizzed everything up.  I then added some veg stock to loosen it a bit but it's made a lovely thick soup.  And so tasty, I can't wait for lunch today!  I'm off to the gym at lunch so will really appreciate my soup after!

I took my measurements today.  Lots of people said this was a good way to keep track of changes.  Particularly if I have a small or (god forbid) no loss on the scales, I may well loose inches so it's a good motivator.

I've got a bottle of pink bubbly to have on Monday night, not only is it valentines day but it will also be 8 years since I met my hubby!  I've worked the bottle out to be 20pp - well worth it! Not sure what we'll be eating but the important part's sorted at least!

09 Feb 11 - WW here I come!

So I went to my first WW meeting last night!  My official starting weight is 20st 4lbs! Yikes! Oh well, onwards and downwards.  The leader seems really nice and am feeling quite motivated at the moment, only problem is that I think this week will be my TOTM which usually affects weight loss negatively so not a great week to start on.  But I suppose it'll catch up next week.  I've been good so far, rather than going to coffee morning with the temptation of cakes I took the dog for a walk and I'm going shopping this afternoon to stock up on fruit and veg.  I bought a WW recipe book at the meeting last night so hopefully I'll be trying some new meals in the next couple of weeks.  Our meals do tend to get very repetitive so need new stuff to try.

I also need to sort out my breakfasts.  I'm really not a breakfast eater but really need to start.  I got some WW peanut bars thinking I could have that but they're not enough so must think about what I can have that's quick and easy.

I really need to start my training so I'm going to map some routes out that I can do at lunchtime. It's the only time I really have other than after dark or weekends.  I know once I'm walking further I'll have to start at weekends but I really don't want to be walking in the dark!  Although I suppose it's something I'm going to have to get used to as the walk itself is at night!  Mind you I don't think it ever gets dark in London!

02 Feb 11 - Minor Victory!

It's coffee morning day today at work but I resisted and had an orange instead!  Check me out, it isn't often I turn down a donut! Not much else to report I'm afraid, I've got an ear infection which isn't helping my motivation to be good and my DH is away too.

Actually, that reminds me of another victory - usually when DH is away I don't bother cooking proper meals for myself and eat crap but last night I made myself baked salmon, boiled pots and mange tout! It was really tasty and so healthy!

31 Jan 11 - Where did Jan go?!

Did I blink and miss it?  I just can't believe it'll be Feb tomorrow!

Sorry it's been a while since my last post but I haven't really had much to say! Such an exciting life I lead I know!

I've decided to join WW next Tuesday and am actually really eager to get going.  I've got my best friend coming to visit this weekend which means lunch out sat and copious amounts of wine so decided to not join this week and then spoil it!  So the plan is to enjoy this weekend and then start frash next week.  Having said that, I am being careful this week.  I ordered my Deluxe Essential Pack from WW today so should be all set to go on Tues :-)

I've been loitering on the WW message boards recently and really find them inspirational.  It's so nice to know that I am not alone, that I'm not the fattest person in the UK afterall, and that people my size do manage to loose increadable amounts of weight and keep it off!  I'm going to make a point of using the message boards this time to get the extra help and support I need.  I will do it this time.

I took DD to a birthday party yesterday where they had trampolines and she wanted me to get on with her.  They were proper competition ones, not the ones for the back garden, but I was really nervous to get on because of my weight.  When I did finally get on (when I was sure no-one was watching!) it sank down so much that I rapidly got off again!  So I now have a non-scale related goal - to go on a trampoline without breaking it and without giving myself black eyes!

17 Jan 11 - Wii Fit!

Not a great weekend as far as eating healthily I'm afraid, we went out shopping Sat and ended up in MacDonalds.  And of course I couldn't have a salad, that would just be wrong, so had a Big Mac Meal!  Also got a bottle of wine as my parents are visiting this week but ended up drinking it Sat night!  Then got another one and drank that Sun night.  And of course you can't drink wine without something to nibble on so had a big bag of crisps too!  I'm doing so well!

On the plus size, I did get Wii Fit Plus and Just Dance 2 on Sat so spent sat evening (before the wine!) trying out the new games on Wii Fit and then DD & I did some dancing on Sun - it's surprisingly hard!

A woman I know just completed her first week on the new WW program and lost 6.5lbs!  So I've got high hopes when I do join. Fingers crossed - just hope I don't put too much on between now and Feb!

13 Jan 11 - Inspiration

I didn't make it to the gym today, I'm just so tired.  I did take the dog for a long walk though so at least I've dome something.

I was looking at the success stories on the WW website earlier and found this one: http://www.weightwatchers.co.uk/success/art/index.aspx?SuccessStoryId=7191&sc=17

She is my height and started off the same weight I am now so it is possible!  She went from a size 24 to a size 10! I've printed the story out and am going to read it when I need a bit of motivation.  Lets hope it helps (fingers crossed).

I know I seem to very negative at the moment (maybe it's the January Blues!) its just that I dieted on and off for so long now that I just find it depressing!

A couple of years ago I had to have my gall bladder removed due to having gall stones, I read the other day that this in commonly caused by yo-yo dieting!  I read a news story today about a woman who has had a gastric bypass after fighting for it for 3 years.  I very much doubt I'd get one on the NHS but I'd definitely pay for one privately if I could.  I'm sure many people think it's a bit drastic and that dieting and exercise can achieve the same thing, but having attempted that for about 15 years now, I can quite honestly say I'd be willing to try anything!

12 Jan 11 - I could cry

I've just seen a photo of myself taken just before Christmas.  I wasn't aware that I was being photographed and it was on a day I thought I looked pretty good and actually made an effort.  I look horrendous!  I'm absolutely huge!  It's weird, when I see myself in my mind eye, I'm big and curvy but not hideous as that picture portrayed.  Maybe that's why I'm struggling, I don't see myself as big as I actually am!  I am planning on joining Weight Watchers in feb, I didn't see the point in joining before as I've got several events coming up that I actually want to enjoy, plus we've done the shopping for the month already so it needs to be eaten!

Seeing this picture has definitly shocked me.  Lets just hope it's the motivational push I need.  Maybe I should keep the picture to remind myself everytime I want to eat something bad!

12 Jan 11 - A new coat

Completely forgot to write yesterday, not that much happened really.  Feeling very 'blah' and the moment, I just don't seem to have motivation or energy to do anything.  I did manage to get to the gym at least but it was a struggle!

I've been needing a new coat for ages and have just been making do with cardigans.  Everytime I went shopping for one I found that if they had my size, they were hideous, and any nice ones didn't come in my size.  Obviously fat women can't have taste!  Anyway, I finally ordered one online, but the sizes were 18-20 or 22-24.  Now I wanted a 20-22 so had to get the bigger one. It arrived yesterday and I look like I'm wearing a tent!  Not at all flattering.  I'd love to have Gok Wan come and style me! I think he's fab, he gets women loving their bodies no matter what size they are.

I really need something to motivate me, in everything really.  Everything just seems like too much work at the moment.

What a happy note to end on!

10 Jan 11 - Not a good start :-(

So I finally weighed myself and the final horrendous figure is .....(drum roll please)....20st 2lbs! Oh my god! And to make myself feel better, I've just eaten a lump of cheese! I did say I was a comfort eater!

Not a good start as I didn't make it to the gym today either, I did manage a couple of walks at least.  I forgot to mention that I'm doing the London Moonwalk this year.  For anyone who doesn't know, this is a nightime walk through London, sounds easy enough until you find out it's the length of a marathon! Oh and you do it in a bra!  Can't wait (not)!  So I REALLY need to start training for it - I've only got till May. Aarrgh!

So, plan for tomorrow is gym at lunchtime plus a couple of walks with the dog. And to stop eating crap!

6 Jan 2011 - I've been to the Gym!

Yes you read that right, I have actually been to the gym today! But my god was that hard work!  I must admit I did actually feel better after too.  I really need to pull my finger out and get myself sorted and make sure I have food and wash stuff and all that sort of stuff sorted to make it all a bit more pleasant though.

I still haven't weighed myself though!  Avoidance I hear you shout, but to be honest I just forgot, although now I think about it, you're right, I don't really want to know!

I found out today that Champneys Spa hotels also do 'Fit Weeks'!  They look great but aren't exactly on the cheap side! See here for details -
 http://www.champneys.com/Booking/Packages/Wellbeing-Breaks/7-night-fit-camp-2011-at-henlow?date=19%2F03%2F2011


I'm ok with all the hard work if you know there's a bit of pampering to come at the end of the day!  And someone else to cook the nutritionally balanced meal, it's such a pain having to do it yourself.

My DH keeps on abou my joining Weighht Watchers again and try their new Pro Points Plan (looks like a bit of Slimming World added to existing plan if you ask me) but I don't think I'm ready at the moment.  I just can't face starting another year on another diet.  It's just all too depressing :-(

For the time being I've decided to concentrate on going to the gym at least 3 times a week and cutting the crap out of my diet, but not actually dieting, just eating a little healthier.  I'll see how things go for a while and then reasess.  If I join WW now I just know I won't stick to it, my heart and mind just aren't ready for it yet.

So, goals for tonight - finally get myself weighed, dust off the Wii to make sure it still works and dig out Wii Fit!

5 Jan 2011 - Welcome

Hi. Welcome to my Diary of a Curvy Chick, by "curvy" I do of course mean fat! Lets be honest from the start!

Firstly my reasons behind starting this - every year I, like many others, make a New Year's resolution to loose weight.  And every year ends with me weighing more rather than less - like many others I'm sure!  So I decided to start this diary about the highs and lows, the triumphs and challanges I face only a daily basis when it comes to loosing weight, getting fit and generally surviving life!

I'm going to try and be as honest as I can, so won't be revealing my identity (at least not yet a while!).  I hope that by keeping this diary it will help me see what works (and doesn't) when it comes to weight loss but also provide a general venting space should I need it - apologies for any future rants!  It would be nice to think that in the future it might also be a source of hope, support, or just a giggle for other people!

And so to me:

I'm 30 years old and live in the south of England with my hubby and daughter (referred to as DH and DD in future - dear husband and dear daugther for those who don't know web abbreviations, and yes, I had to look them up not too long ago too!)  I work full time as does DH and DD is at nursery. 

And the problem:

I'm 5'7" tall  and weigh....actually I'd better check tonight, I doubt Christmas has been kind!
Needless to say I have A LOT of weight to loose to be in my 'ideal' range.  Having said that, I don't put much stock by BMI, I think I'd be too thin if I went by this. But maybe that's just me making excuses!  According to the Weight Watchers BMI chart, at my height I should weigh between 9 st 2 lbs and 11 st 6 lbs.  To be perfectly honest, I don't really care what I weigh, it's more about clothes size to me.  I'd love to be a size 14, although a 12 would be better!  At the moment I'm a 20 to 22. So I've a long way to go.

It feels like that ever since puberty hit, I've been on a diet of some sort and to be honest I'm sick of them.  I've done Weight Watchers, Slimming World, the cabbage soup diet (lasted about 2 days!), Atkins (made my sick!), I've joined gyms more times than I can remember, but it never lasts.  I'll loose a couple of stone but then get stuck and bored and gradually put the weight, and more, back on.

And the goal:

This year I plan to find something that actually works for me, I'm not really sure what that is yet but I'm willing to give anything a try!

A final thought:

I am constantly amazed by how nasty, inconsiderate and ignorant some people are when it comes to weight issues.  For example, today at work we had a coffee morning and there were lots of donuts.  Towards the end, I was standing with 3 male colleagues, all fairly slim, when one of the coffee morning hosts came over trying to get rid of the last few donuts.  He offered them to each man in turn saying "you're thin (or fairly thin), have a donut", but never even acknowledged me and then walked off!  I couldn't belive it!  I know I'm fat, but who the hell does he think he is deciding if I can have a donut or not?!  I just don't understand how people can be so insensitive.  To make it worse, I'm very much a comfort eater - upsetting me really doesn't help with my weight loss! Rant over!